At this moment, I just feel the need to know myself. I’m learning a lot about people, places, and events whilst leaving out myself. Sometimes I ask myself why I should bother observing myself deliberately when I am with myself always. That’s enough to know about myself.
But I can’t be naïve. There are a lot happening around me, some people pulling and pushing me, molding me and destroying me. If I just succumb blindly I will end up being what I shouldn’t have been. And I will spend the rest of my life crying my eyes out about how uncomfortable life is and how I wish it was in some other way.I believe there is a person in me, one who can react to this world in a different and unique way. I shouldn’t harm anyone in my choices but I shouldn’t forget myself either. I want to ask what the world is telling me. Not what it has been telling others and what they got from it because to face the truth am different, otherwise I wouldn’t be added to this world.
Then learning about me means finding out my purpose in this world which is somehow a hard pursuit. Is my purpose my interest, something that am passionate about? Perhaps it is my ambition. Is my purpose to be like someone else or perhaps mine is a totally a different one. You just come in this world where you are never told how to live. Many things are learnt from the bad. From your mistakes when you get good spanking or any consequences you might earn yourself, sometimes from other people’s mistakes.
Everyone is talking; everyone has an expectation of whom and what I should be. So many to impress and somehow I might forget myself. The fact is you can’t be everyone’s expectation but yourself.
But I can’t be naïve. There are a lot happening around me, some people pulling and pushing me, molding me and destroying me. If I just succumb blindly I will end up being what I shouldn’t have been. And I will spend the rest of my life crying my eyes out about how uncomfortable life is and how I wish it was in some other way.I believe there is a person in me, one who can react to this world in a different and unique way. I shouldn’t harm anyone in my choices but I shouldn’t forget myself either. I want to ask what the world is telling me. Not what it has been telling others and what they got from it because to face the truth am different, otherwise I wouldn’t be added to this world.
Then learning about me means finding out my purpose in this world which is somehow a hard pursuit. Is my purpose my interest, something that am passionate about? Perhaps it is my ambition. Is my purpose to be like someone else or perhaps mine is a totally a different one. You just come in this world where you are never told how to live. Many things are learnt from the bad. From your mistakes when you get good spanking or any consequences you might earn yourself, sometimes from other people’s mistakes.
Everyone is talking; everyone has an expectation of whom and what I should be. So many to impress and somehow I might forget myself. The fact is you can’t be everyone’s expectation but yourself.
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